Another decade begins...

Well...

I turned 30 last week.

I had a wonderful day, walking the flower markets, eating brunch, spending time with friends and family... 

but even with all the love and friendship I experienced on this day, something wasn't quite right.

As I took time to pray later in the day, 

I found God showing me how I have been feeling this way for months, maybe even years.

I'm stuck.

Once I recognised this, I realised that I stand on the cusp of something new. 

A new decade in my life has begun. 

The last decade was disappointing in many ways, but this coming decade doesn't have to follow in the last's footsteps. 

And so, I made the decision to work through what my dreams and desires really are. 

To pray about them, 

and look at how they can come to pass. 

I don't have to force every door open, however, I believe that in recognising all that God has given me in my heart, 

I can prepare myself and be ready to see the door open. 

No longer will I be blind to God's leading and always survive on half hopes and dreams. 

I can have hopes and dreams that bloom full and lush. 

I can lay them at my Lord's feet in prayer and he will hear them and will guide me.

And so, as I sit with Tarquin on my lap, having loudly purred himself into a sleeping stupor, I know that I can start to pray and dream about my future - whole heartedly.