Well...
I turned 30 last week.
I had a wonderful day, walking the flower markets, eating brunch, spending time with friends and family...
but even with all the love and friendship I experienced on this day, something wasn't quite right.
As I took time to pray later in the day,
I found God showing me how I have been feeling this way for months, maybe even years.
I'm stuck.
Once I recognised this, I realised that I stand on the cusp of something new.
A new decade in my life has begun.
The last decade was disappointing in many ways, but this coming decade doesn't have to follow in the last's footsteps.
And so, I made the decision to work through what my dreams and desires really are.
To pray about them,
and look at how they can come to pass.
I don't have to force every door open, however, I believe that in recognising all that God has given me in my heart,
I can prepare myself and be ready to see the door open.
No longer will I be blind to God's leading and always survive on half hopes and dreams.
I can have hopes and dreams that bloom full and lush.
I can lay them at my Lord's feet in prayer and he will hear them and will guide me.
And so, as I sit with Tarquin on my lap, having loudly purred himself into a sleeping stupor, I know that I can start to pray and dream about my future - whole heartedly.
